I have PCOS.
I've always been overweight since I was younger and didn't even bother looking at the scale.
I turned 225 pounds and I knew I had to set my priorities before its too late.
My ultimate goal is to be thin and happy with my body before I go to college.
I want to be confident when I go to college, I want things to change
Height : 5"8.5
Sw : 225ish
Goal weight : 200 (complete)
GW : 190 (complete)
Gw : 180 (complete)
Gw: 170 (complete)
ULTIMATE GW : 160 (complete)
GW : 150 (complete)
GW : 140(complete)
GW : 130
Satisfied weight : 125
UGW: 120

CW : 135
I feel like I still have a long way to go, even though I have number set, I'll stop when Im happy.

I'll never have a flat stomach cause of PCOS, but I will get as close as possible.

I can’t exercise atm because of reasons and I couldn’t exercise and its been a month now and I’m starting to get fat again and I gain weight so easily because of PCOS and its making me very upset and I just want to cut and eat ice cream and cry over how I’m never going to be thin because of a stupid syndrome that I shouldn’t even have because I’m a fucking teenager and I’m not supposed to be taking birth control because my vagina can’t follow directions and its unfair and I just want to have a flat stomach and be happy but that’s not going to happen and I hate exercise videos because they just suck and I just want to go running but my anxiety permits me to go running outside because I’m afraid people will stare at me and my fat and omg I can’t. Sigh. And if I don’t get to start running again I’m just going to be as fat as I was from the beginning. 

im comparing pictures from when I was 155 to now (135) 

I think I will lose those 10 pounds and become 125. 

It’ll make a difference.

dear followers,

I made a progress blog

feel free to message me for the password, 

if you aren’t a weightloss blog or if I haven’t talked to you, 

I most likely won’t give you the password. 

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a list of things that is wrong with me :

  • my hairy face
  • my non proportional face
  • my blotchy uneven face 
  • my crooked teeth (thank gosh for braces)
  • my hair that gets oily quickly
  • my oily face 
  • my pudgy stomach that doesn’t match my skinny legs 
  • my hairy fingers and toes 
  • my scars 
  • my eczema that causes scars
  • my nails are gross because I pick at them when I’m nervous 
  • my extremely loud personality when I’m with my few friends
  • my extremely shy personality when I’m around new people 
  • my brown skin 
  • the guilt I feel after I eat something 
  • my feelings to just lock myself away from the world
  • my inability to do anything right
  • my lack of talent
  • my lack of cuteness
  • my lack of confidence
  • my lack of looking neat and put together instead of a mess

a boyfriend would be nice tho..

I mean, someone out there has to like me eventually, right?

:/ 

but all the guys in my school only date size 00 white girls with perfect skin and proportional faces who have cute personalities and eat whatever they want and have cute clothes and look neat and clean and ugh. 

whatever though.

It upsets me when I see flat stomachs on tumblr from people who weigh more than me because I know I’ll never get it. 

Also, 

I have this giant dark spot on the side of my face and idk if its from PCOS or if its hyperpigmation or whatever but my mom doesn’t approve of makeup(besides eyeliner) so in my head, I’m never going to get a boyfriend. 

lalala…

drop-the-weight: goaltogetfit: myjournalofhealth: withaflatstomach: lovethepain: I’m disappointed. Oh well, it’s not like I eat processed foods anyways! http://www.courthousenews.com/2011/08/30/Kashi.pdf Nooooo. A part of me always suspected this, but… ughhh, I liked Kashi! Reblogging for awareness. How much do you wonder that tons of other foods that we eat every day are this same way? Never really liked kashi…this makes me angry though. Ugh come on oh man, i liked their waffles.